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Chapter Thirty Six


“Docking Sequence has begun, prepare the air-lock.” 

Jae-Lee Reklaw hears the words of Master Mussiri over the ship’s comm system, and he begins his trip from the med-bay (where he has been residing since even before Nija came aboard) to the docking bay air-lock door.

He has the oddest sense that things are just not right, and so he hurries his steps.  Not knowing what it is that is causing this sensation, but knowing that something is definitely brewing. 

He makes it there just as The Burn passes by the transparisteel window of the air-lock door.  Seeing his beloved craft in one piece, once again, makes his heart jump up into his throat.  But quickly he regains the sense of dread that seems to permeate everything for him right now.

Seeing the green light flash on the air-lock, Jae begins to pull open the door.  Having a great deal of difficulty at first, Jae changes positions and finds the task a little easier.  Suddenly, he realizes that Mees is not on the other side of the door making his life just as miserable as he did to her when he was on that side.  This is cause for some worry, since Jae has never known Mees to pass up an opportunity to rib him about anything.  But of course, he was beginning to learn that he knew very little about the young woman whom he had once considered his only family.  Still consider! Nothing can be so bad as to keep me from believing that.

Finally maneuvering the door enough to get the seal to break, Jae can hear the air being exchanged between the two rooms once more and the door begins to slide open on its own now.

Looking up from his task, Jae can see Mees standing at the door, her arm resting on doorway, and her head hung down, as if in deep thought.  She gets ready to move through the door, not even seeing Jae standing in her way as they collide.  Jumping back like a feral felinoid, Meesahran is shocked to find Jae standing there.

“Oh, sorry.  I wasn’t paying attention.” She tries to move past him, but Jae will have none of it.

“Hey, where do you think you’re going?  We have some things to clear up before this ship goes anywhere.”  Jae tries being very firm with his friend.

“What is there to clear up?  You’re taking off as soon as you re-fuel and we’re going to Chandrila.  Pretty cut and dry if you ask me.”  Mees begins to walk down the corridor, but Jae reaches out and grabs her by the arm, trying to keep her in conversation.  Without warning, Meesahran spins around, pinning him to the corridor wall with one hand in his chest and with the other grappling his throat.  “I said not to do that, got it?” Her biting words coming through hard clenched teeth.

Jae tries to nod his head in affirmation, but with her hand planted firmly into his gullet, it makes that a dangerous proposition.

Catching movement in the corridor from the corner of her eye, Meesahran releases him from her grasp and walks away, as Xana begins to move towards the scene from the other end of the corridor.  “This isn’t over, Mees.  You’re gonna hear me out if it’s the last thing I do!”  Croaking the words as he rubs the reddened area of his neck, “And it just might be.” 

“Might be what?”  Jae spins around to find Xana right next to him, not having sensed her approach.

“Oh, nothing, I hope.”  He says looking down the corridor where Mees had once been.  “Say, where’d you come from?”

“I thought I would see if you needed any help with air-lock door.  I remembered it being something of a chore.  However, it would appear that timing is my contribution to this event.”  Looking at his neck and the hand shaped red marks upon it, “Are you all right?  And do not try to tell me that was simply horsing around.  I have seen that look on Meesahran’s face in the past, and it was never in jest.”  She brushes her fingers across his neck in a gentle pass.

“To be honest, I have no idea what that was about, except maybe she thinks I’m deserting her or something.  I wasn’t even going to leave yet, but she seems to want me gone now.”  Jae shakes his head in confusion and to make sure his neck was not broken. However, as he does so he notices a warm and wet trickle on the back of his neck. 

Xana sees it at the same time, “Oh my goodness, you are bleeding.  Please turn around and let me look at it.”  Jae does as ordered and can now feel the buzzing in his ears from the pain in his head.  Xana proceeds to pull his hair away from the affected area, “It appears as though the skin around your wound has split.  I am afraid you will need to have this tended to, Master Reklaw.  We should get you to the med-bay.  I am certain there are proper instruments for dealing with this right away.”  Xana takes his hand and leads him from the docking bay corridor towards the med-bay.

 

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Walking into the med-bay Jae-Lee is a swirl of emotions. Although he tries to hide it, Xana can sense his torment. Upon entering the room, she immediately goes to the supply cabinet for the needed equipment.

Holding the back of his head, Jae sits down on the bunk, just as Xana approaches him with a suture tray.  “Are you sure you know what you’re doing?”  Jae looks a little worried as she takes out the curved needle.

“Of course I do. Now turn around, please, Master Reklaw,” the smile on her face betrays her serious composure.

Looking questionably at the tray, then at the blood on his hand, fresh from his wound, he turns slowly. Wincing, "Just how bad is it?"

Furrowing her brow as she pulls the hair away from the gaping hole in the back of his head, “Bad enough to require several sutures, I am afraid…  Do you wish to have something for the pain, Master Reklaw?”

Now THAT’S a toughie! "Well… How about something mild for the surface? I don’t want to be knocked out, though. I'll be fine with a local."

She peers over his shoulder, looking him directly in the eye, “If you are certain?”  Seeing his firm resolve there in those crystal blue eyes, Xana returns to her task.  “First I will irrigate the wound.  This may hurt for a bit, but the anesthetic is in the rinse.”

Seeing her warm smile, he tries to return it. "Do your worst."

The rinse stings a little, at first, but the pain brings back the memory of how he ended up bleeding again. "Mees is sure jumpy lately, huh?"  Sensing a touch that far into the skull feels... eerie.

Trying desperately not to react to the ministrations of this lovely young woman, Jae sits in silent, macho agony as Xana stitches up his head.  “There, not too bad I hope…” She finishes up the last of the sutures and returns the instruments to their proper places, “I suppose it would depend on what you consider lately.  Meesahran has been like that since she was- ...  I would have to say sixteen or seventeen years of age.  Yes, I believe that was when she stayed with us for a time during her recovery.”  Xana returns to her tidying up, paying no attention to the astonished look on Jae’s face.

"Recovery?" A feeling of dread creeps over him. "From what?"

As she turns to answer him, she realizes that she may have said something that she should not have said.  “Oh, my-…  Perhaps I should not have mentioned it.  I only assumed that since you were such good friends that she-…  Well, that she would have told you about it.”  Trying to recover her composure, Xana turns back around to the instrument tray on the counter.

Reaching out and almost falling off the bunk in the process, Jae puts his hand on her shoulder. Not grabbing and not forceful in any way, but not a loose grip either. "Wait..." Turning half way around Xana looks into the eyes of the pleading man. His concern is genuine and more than obvious. "Please…” He asks, “What happened?"

His words and his eyes, the desperation she finds in them, begs her to reveal the truth to this kind hearted man.  “I just do not know if it is right for me betray this apparent confidence.”  She knows that Meesahran never told her to keep silent, but Xana also knows the pain that her dear friend endured all those years ago, and the change she underwent following that episode.  And his awareness of that could only help to heal those old wounds, would it not?

"I only want to help. I mean.... I've never seen her like this. It was nothing at first, but now she seems like she’s on the edge all the time. This time, she actually hurt me. Physically." Jae seems to consider that for a moment.  A thought had just struck him for the first time. "That’s never happened. Not out of anger." His face grows even more serious. "I need to know."

The sheer anguish in this man’s eyes has melted her resolve.  Slumping her shoulders slightly, as though a great weight has been placed there, she begins, “You must understand, I only know about her condition after the incident.  I was never told the reasons for her injuries. My brother felt it would be improper to expose me to that information.  After all, I was only thirteen at the time.”  Xana looks for reassurance in Reklaw’s eyes and finds it there and in his words.

"Anything you can tell me. Anything at all will help me get a grip on this stuff."  With his words, she takes a seat on the bunk next him.

Breathing deeply, as though she had to be reminded to do so, she goes on, “She was with us for six standard months.  I was charged with helping to care for her, along with Master Mussiri.  It was Master Mussiri who brought her to us.”

Jae's mind swirls with questions but his first concern is Mees and. He takes Xana’s hand in his, “What happened for her to need that much recovery?”

“Oh, my… The injuries were so extensive and there were so very many.  Her legs were broken numerous times and in hideous ways, she had terrible lacerations and contusions over her entire body, all of her ribs were broken and one lung had been punctured.  From the appearance of the wound, it actually looked to have been done deliberately.  As though someone had forced a jagged instrument into her chest to expose the lung.”  Xana shakes her head, trying to remove the mental images that are pouring in from her memories.

“I’m amazed she could have survived all of that.”   Jae takes his hands away from Xana and tries to find something else to do with them, as he lowers his head, trying not to look into Xana’s painful gaze. 

Xana, feeling his pain, reaches over and lays a gentle hand upon the side of his head, “I wish I could say that was all, but the worst of it was the fact that it seemed as though someone or something had tried to split her two.”  Suddenly, Jae’s head pops up and the bewildered and horrified expression on his face causes Xana even more pain as she explains.  “Her pelvis was fractured in multiple places and nearly torn from her back.  She was unable to even move for more than a month, and it took her nearly four months to be able to walk again.”  Xana waits for the man’s reaction to this latest revelation.

He turns to face the wall in front of them and stares off into nothingness.  His mind a jumble with all of the possibilities this information provides him, and knowing that there is only one answer.  Torture and maybe…  No, I can’t think that right now.  Not that… His body, slowly adjusting to the news his mind is processing, begins to tremble and his eyes start to well up with unshed tears.  Then he drops his head and the trembling reaches a visible intensity.

Seeing this incredibly strong man reduced to a quivering mass, Xana reaches out to him, placing her arms around his shoulders and holding him to her.  Trying desperately to comfort him in some way, she begins to practice the soothing tones that Meesahran had shown her all those years ago.  Softly humming, and stroking his back, Xana slowly begins to let a bit of her own peace ebb into the wake of his presence.

Jae-Lee Reklaw begins to fall deeper and deeper into his own despair. How could I have left her there?  Why didn’t she call out to me?  I could have heard her call from anywhere, I just know it. But as he begins to be consumed with grief and guilt, he suddenly feels a warmth.  A warmth that has been missing from his life for longer than he can remember.  Its feeling is soothing, and calming.  Allowing him to get a hold of himself, while he struggles to regain his focus yet again.

 

“When you maintain your focus, Son.  When you’re at peace.  Then you will know the truth.”

 

With those words echoing in his head, Jae can once again see through his pain.  The trembling stops, and he straightens up once more.  Turning to face the young woman at his side, “Thank you, Xana.  Your honesty and openness have given me a new perspective on what needs to be done.  I do have one question though. You said Master Mussiri brought her to you. Do you know him well? 

“No, but a mutual friend told the Master of our relationship with Meesahran and that we owed her a debt.  From what I could gather, it was Master Mussiri who found Meesahran when she was injured.  I do not know how or why, but only that he found her through some kind of bond they share because of their abilities.  It seems that all adepts are capable of this bond.”  She looks into Jae’s eyes trying to get some kind of confirmation from him.

"Yes, that’s true." He looks confidently at her, unashamed but not knowing if she understands his answer, and what he is about to say. "That’s one of the things that helped Mees and I work together so well." He swallows. "We shared that bond."

Xana seems somewhat surprised, but not completely. With a look more confused than surprised, she asks, "You follow the Will as Master Mussiri does?"

"No. Not really. There are many people who share these... abilities. There are many different beliefs on how to use these powers, and so there are many paths to take." Jae momentarily remembers Mussiri's offer to train him, but now was not the time. He had seen something in Xana's eyes. "Another question?"

"No, nothing…"  She has grown very uncomfortable with the topic.

He stands to leave the room and placing a hand upon Xana's shoulder, "Thank you again, Xana.  I appreciate your honesty more than I can explain.  I only wish others could have been as honest with me. If you don’t mind, I would suggest you stay here for now. I think the Rancor fodder is about to hit the oscillator, and you'll be much safer in here than in Mees' quarters." 

“Perhaps you are right, but-. . .”  Xana rises from the bunk and moves up to Jae, “If you are going to face Meesahran’s wrath at this moment, I should give you this now.”

“Give me wha-…” His words are interrupted by her lips gingerly pressing into his own.  Soon, the shock wears off, and he returns the kiss. When she finally pulls away, Jae is speechless and completely breathless.

“I grew tired of waiting for you to get around to it again, and since you are marching off into certain doom, I felt the necessity to have it now.”  Her coy smile causes him to blush more deeply than he ever has before.

“Umm, I sort of have a confession to mak-…”  She puts a finger on his lips to silence him.

“Shhhh, we will have time to discuss it later.  I promise.”  And she pushes him out of the med-bay, closing the door between them and falling back into the closed door.

Biting her lip as she sighs the deepest sigh of her life.  Hugging her arms about her, she chances just the smallest squeal of delight.

 

 

Falling back against the far wall from the door, Jae-Lee lets out the breath he has been holding since their lips parted.  “If that’s what I can’t remember, then damn my mind to hell!”

Waiting there a moment longer, Jae girds himself up for the battle that is about to ensue.  “Well, it’s now or never.”  Might as well meet my certain death with a smile on my face. 

Creator: PtrsonsZOO (Jennifer) & arrowheadpodracer (Josh)

 

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